It is the natural instinct in the human reality to wish to progress, to make changes, to move forward, to ever evolve within your life. I the man that walked upon the earth is not the man speaking with you right now. I was able to come in and step down the vibration of my true authentic self as much as possible in that lifetime, however, you think your energy is heavy now; it was thousands of time even more dense at that time.
This is another reason why I went to the Himalayan Mountains so that I could be in the high vibration so that I could have that reminder of who I truly am.
How interesting that handing the energies has always been a challenge! Yeshua struggled, we have struggled. It is all moving towards the new reality.